goodbye ~

i don't do this blogspot stuff anymore .

i won't delete this,

but i'm not gonna be

on at all in the future . <3

hm .

michael jackson died today .

thats sad .

and so did farrah .

gosh .

2009 is a bad year, in my opinion =/

Slacker !

its been a while .

my hair is short,

like rihanna short .

today is 8 months for me and babe <3

LOVE YOU ! lol

uhhhh . thats about it .

Good Day (:

babe decided to play with temporary tattoos .

he knew i wanted to take pictures lol now

everyone thinks i have a gangster boyfriend .

well anyway, it was a good day for us.

the sun was shining perfectly .

Last Nite .

Its nights like that,

that stand as proof or reassurance

and show me that everything will be okay .

i love you, babe .

closure .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OaxjqBcuots&feature=player_embedded

stupid blogspot won't let me put it directly on here .

but omg, this video is amazing .

i think after the funeral today,

everyone finally has closure .

Rest In Peace, Stephen .

& watch over Robyn .

Robyn- we may not have talked in months but you are an amazing person and i want the best for you . i hope this makes you stronger .

damnit .

school tomorrow .

i'm not going to the viewing or the funeral .

its not my place .

its gonna be a sad last week of school .

free hugs ?

RIP, Porno . <3

RIP. Stephen .

this impacted EVERYONE at school .

more than 109 kids left that day .

Rest in Paradise Stephen .

You are in everyone's hearts .

Last Night .

we fought .

we cried (or atleast i did) .

we resolved .

we planned .

we loved .

you are the life of my strength .

you are the strength of my life .

ily deeply (:

102508 <33

Honestly,

i've been lying to you lately .

i just didnt want to seem selfish .

if i said i was lonely, it'd make you feel bad so i said nothing .

you always ask what's wrong and i give you the same answer .

n o t h i n g .

i need to realize that you have a life and i can't always be in it .

stupid me .

Hm .

nothing much to say .

kinda disappointed .

but eh .

lets go on an adventure :)

Tu Ne Me Comprends Pas .

so here we are again .

i'm starting to believe that

you don't want me to be happy .

you're keeping me away from the

only person who maintains my sanity .

what a great parent you are .

i'm tired of having one-way conversations

with you . they get us nowhere .

we can never talk about anything because

my opinion doesn't matter .

when it comes down to it,

you'd rather see me sad than happy .

your reasoning is petty . but who cares .

i'm wrong and you're right .

isn't that how the story always goes ?

Dejame !

you know, i'm tired of people telling me that nothing lasts forever .

let me be a naiive lil kid and let me learn my lesson the hard way .

but i promise you, isaiah will NOT be leaving . not until forever ends .

... which is never . lol :D ily babe !

Dear So & So,

what makes someone worthy of more privilages ? you'd think that 'good grades' and a 'great attitude' would be reasons . but no, you see nothing . you notice all my faults and call me on them . you don't reward me for my accomplishments . what's the use of striving in life when there is no light at the end of the tunnel ? idk . it seems like i can't talk to you at all . you don't understand me . you don't listen . you get on me about things that other parents would be proud of . you don't want me to be happy . you don't see how much i'm appreciated . you treat my brother better than me when in reality, i'm succeeding far more than he is . i don't understand . you say i'm too involved with my BOYFRIEND and act like all i do is bother him . you haven't even asked how we are . you don't know how long its been, how happy he makes me, and how happy i make him . you don't let me do anything but then ask why i'm so lazy . i do things around the house yet you say i do nothing . i'm quite helpful . you complain about everything to me but when i complain, its selfish . i'm trying to go far but you're holding me back . too bad you're not listening at all . forget it . i don't care anymore .

--- Your Daughter Régine .

Painting The Roses Red .

ahhhhhh he got me roses!

i swear, i love that kidd ;D

Lo Que Paso, Paso .

omgggg today was one of the best days :)

isaiah came over for dinner & just to chill .

i think him & my fam are getting closer .

(except with my older bro, he sucks !) haha jk

we were all playing the wii like losers .

but OMFG, he surprised me with ROSES.

R O S E S !

they are so pretty .

it wasnt even a special occasion either .

he said he had to stop by the store on his

way over and that kinda made me mad cus

he wouldn't tell me why . lol

but my face lit up when he stepped out of

the car with a bouquet of roses .

omg i love that guy !

ahhh i'll take a picture soon .

but yes, he's coming to DC with me tomorrow .

look out for pictures .

this weekend = so far so good .

REMINDER !

next saturday will be 6 Months <33 .

half a year, wow.

funny how time flies when you're in love (:

Justice w| a side of...

i promised it would come .

just be patient .

http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0409/614201.html

http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0409/614201.html

http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0409/614201.html

http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0409/614201.html

http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0409/614201.html

i got your back maurice . lol (:

Status Update !

okay, i just got back from DISNEY WORLD .
it was alrite . i missed isaiah like crazy tho .
let me say that things between me and him
are great and i'm glad we've gotten so close .
ahh i love that guy (: lol . ummmmmm
today is my only relax day cus school starts again
tomorrow : and i only got back yesterday evening .
bleh . i bought isaiah a big swirly lollipop from disney
and some mickey & minnie stuffedd thingies .
i'm giving him the minnie one and im keeping the mickey .
how cute eh ? kinda cheesy but idc . OMG YES, report
cards came in & i def got a 4.2 GPA . i'm such a nerd .
anywho, today is a chill day and i want to spend it with him .
you should def know who "him" is . lol
new pictures today ? hm maybe . g'bye (:

Lately .

he's been stronger than me .
i feel like such a burden with
all my crying and stuff.
ughh & i'm not going to be here
for spring break .
i'm gonna reeeeeele miss isaiah .
idk . i've become so attached to
him and we've gotten so close
to the point where my heart hurts
when he's gone .
its going to be the longest week
of my life without him .
i mean, i don't see him all the time
but i'm atleast able to talk to him
on the fone . i won't even be able
to do that :'(

i'm praying that the funeral is
this week .

On A Lighter Note...

Me & Isaiah keep this notebook
where we write down random things
or tell how our day was or just write
about each other . he says the cutest
things about me (: i mite just scan
a few pages soon .

hm. but with his brother's death
being so recent, I'm trying to
be there for him as much as i can .
i believe this is gonna bring us closer .
its not exactly the occasion i wanted
but I'm trying . Isaiah is gonna
be just like his brother one day .
his family has taken me in as their own .
i love the feeling .

i pray we find the person who scarred
Isaiah's life with their cruelty .

i love you Isaiah Gregory Fountain .
RIP, Maurice .

RIP, Maurice .

http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0309/607925.html

it's just horrible . RIP, Maurice .
Your Family & I are going to find justice .
i promise .

idk pt. 3

its the morning after .
i can't take your crying .
it breaks my heart :(
i don't know what to say .
i feel helpless cus i can't take away the pain .
idk isaiah, i'm trying my best .
please be strong . thats all i can ask for .
because i don't want to lose you to this misery .

you're not alone . never will be . i love you .

idk pt. 2

i don't understand .
how is this a part of God's plan ?
he was a part of your family therefore a part of mine .
Isaiah, please be strong .
i swear, i won't let anything happen to you .
i promise .

be strong for me .

RIP. Maurice
always a big brother in my eyes .

idk :'(

idk . idk . idk .
idk whats happening
i dont understand
im so confused .
im waiting for your call
i need to talk to you
i hope you're okay
idk i cant stop crying
babe, i need to hear your voice
i love you so much
are you okay ?
please hurry and call
i need your voice
the thought of anything happening
to you scares me so bad .

please, please, call me babe.
idk what to do :'(

are things like this supposed to happen
for a reason ? damnit . idk anymore .

Nonsense .

i got nothing to say .
but i just decided to let you know
that i can't keep up with this
"everyday blogging thing"
i have no life, yet, i'm busy .
hehe OMG guess what tho ?
next wednesday will be 5 months
<33333333333333333333333
its a good amount of time to be
able to spend with someone you adore .
lets see if i can survive this week .
schools got me beat . ehh .
-music starts-
i can survive !
-no more music-

lmao . byee (:

Frustration .

nothing is working .

i'm trying my best to get to a better us .

i feel like we're going downhill .

it was like this before but it got better .

idk . always fighting and things being

awkward when we're together ,

its not where i want to be .

i'm gunna try harder and

pray that we get thru

this storm as a whole .

i'd lose my mind if we couldn't .

Currently...

i feel better . yesterday was bleh but atleast i spent

it with isaiah . OH YES :) lol um. i got 5 things on my mindd...

1. himm <3

2. food . haha

3. FRIGGGIN SONG THAT'S STUCK IN MY HEAD.

4. damn school projects.

5. nothing.

so wait, thats four . hm . im boredd with nothing to do .

random thought: can you believe black history month is over alrede ?

shortest month of the year lol .

OHHHH WAIT, wednesday the 25th was a special day

woot woot !

And Hearts !

new beginnings . reunions . trust . love . happiness . sensuality . promises .

first impressions . words . faith .

valentine's day <3

today, i got isaiah a teddy bear puppy thingy (he named it after me) . & some GOOOOOOOODDDDD ASSSSSS cologne . lmao it smells great . & a big box of CHOC-O-LATE . yummm ;D PLUS... the earrings he's wanted for a while . don't forget to mention the sweet card i got .

aren't i the best ? oh yessssss !

okay . so i spent most of the day with isaiah &

oh snap , we took pictures !

theres more. & they're cute :) lol
February 14th, 2009 -- Valentine's Day .

Mutual Agreement .

so, we're gonna try to change things up .

work on us and our love . nothing needs fixing up,

but we just want to be closer .

i'm rele starting to cherish how great things are

between us . like, i'm thinking differently .

we're trying our hardest . i seriously believe

i can have a future with this guy . tell me i'm naive,

and i'll just laugh in your face . comme ca,"hahahahaha" lmao .

so i say cheers, to a big future . salud :)

Inspiration ?

its beautiful things like this that make me

wanna learn a million instruments :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02Ao9jyq5Vk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02Ao9jyq5Vk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02Ao9jyq5Vk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02Ao9jyq5Vk

Honestly,

im slacking .
i have nothing to say .
its alrede been said .
lets go on an adventure
& talk about it on blogspot :)
lol yeahh ?


oh, btw. today = 3 & 1/2 months . yummmm !

Nous/Nosotros .

we argue . we cry . we talk . we shout . we live .

we love .

Realizations of the Mind .

& so i blame myself for our arguments . i'm too serious . i let my temper get the best of me . i'm difficult to understand . i can't explain myself . i hold too many grudges . i'm hard headed and stubborn . i'm naive . i'm cold-hearted . i hate to be wrong; but admit that i don't know everything . i'm an optimistic pessimist . i hate the thought of being alone . and although my faults sometimes overcast my true self, he sees past the gray rain clouds . i've truly realized how lucky i am .

Are You In Good Hands ?

& so, here i am again, continuing my everlasting love-sick day dreams. haha au contraire mon ami, life has never felt so real . maybe i'm exaggerating, or maybe you're just a ____ . i think maybe y o u don't understand . la la la idc if i'm living in a fairy tale at the current moment . i'd rather not wake up from this day dream -- not as long as i have the only thing i need and want by my side . i pity the girl who thinks she has everything but takes it for granted . i've learned and assessed . never have i thought that i could deserve such a beautiful thing . hmmmm. life is lookin up ehh ? OH YESS ! ^_^

Monophobia .

"Monophobia is an acute fear of being alone and having to cope without a specific person, or perhaps any person, in close proximity."

Just when you think you know everything you're feeling, something surprises you. Today was interesting. As always, i had the normal butterflies wrestling in my stomach, nothing new. but OMGGGG i kept thinking about how i couldn't stand to be away from HIM . haha idk i don't like to think about being alone . not at all <33

It's Only The Beginning,

i can honestly say that at this point in time, i'm TRULY happy .

i've met someone who makes me a better person .

i can't deny it to anyone; i'd be lying .

he's my best friend, my support system, call him what you want .

all i know is that he has earned a big spot in my chest

& it's exactly where my heart should be ;)

nobody fully understands the extent of my words but that's okay .

as long as he knows what he's done for me, i'm G O O D .

"If you're ever feeling lonely, just always remember that I'll always be here and if I'm away, im always coming back to you. You are my future." --- Isaiah