Lately .

he's been stronger than me .
i feel like such a burden with
all my crying and stuff.
ughh & i'm not going to be here
for spring break .
i'm gonna reeeeeele miss isaiah .
idk . i've become so attached to
him and we've gotten so close
to the point where my heart hurts
when he's gone .
its going to be the longest week
of my life without him .
i mean, i don't see him all the time
but i'm atleast able to talk to him
on the fone . i won't even be able
to do that :'(

i'm praying that the funeral is
this week .

On A Lighter Note...

Me & Isaiah keep this notebook
where we write down random things
or tell how our day was or just write
about each other . he says the cutest
things about me (: i mite just scan
a few pages soon .

hm. but with his brother's death
being so recent, I'm trying to
be there for him as much as i can .
i believe this is gonna bring us closer .
its not exactly the occasion i wanted
but I'm trying . Isaiah is gonna
be just like his brother one day .
his family has taken me in as their own .
i love the feeling .

i pray we find the person who scarred
Isaiah's life with their cruelty .

i love you Isaiah Gregory Fountain .
RIP, Maurice .

RIP, Maurice .

http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0309/607925.html

it's just horrible . RIP, Maurice .
Your Family & I are going to find justice .
i promise .

idk pt. 3

its the morning after .
i can't take your crying .
it breaks my heart :(
i don't know what to say .
i feel helpless cus i can't take away the pain .
idk isaiah, i'm trying my best .
please be strong . thats all i can ask for .
because i don't want to lose you to this misery .

you're not alone . never will be . i love you .

idk pt. 2

i don't understand .
how is this a part of God's plan ?
he was a part of your family therefore a part of mine .
Isaiah, please be strong .
i swear, i won't let anything happen to you .
i promise .

be strong for me .

RIP. Maurice
always a big brother in my eyes .

idk :'(

idk . idk . idk .
idk whats happening
i dont understand
im so confused .
im waiting for your call
i need to talk to you
i hope you're okay
idk i cant stop crying
babe, i need to hear your voice
i love you so much
are you okay ?
please hurry and call
i need your voice
the thought of anything happening
to you scares me so bad .

please, please, call me babe.
idk what to do :'(

are things like this supposed to happen
for a reason ? damnit . idk anymore .

Nonsense .

i got nothing to say .
but i just decided to let you know
that i can't keep up with this
"everyday blogging thing"
i have no life, yet, i'm busy .
hehe OMG guess what tho ?
next wednesday will be 5 months
<33333333333333333333333
its a good amount of time to be
able to spend with someone you adore .
lets see if i can survive this week .
schools got me beat . ehh .
-music starts-
i can survive !
-no more music-

lmao . byee (:

Frustration .

nothing is working .

i'm trying my best to get to a better us .

i feel like we're going downhill .

it was like this before but it got better .

idk . always fighting and things being

awkward when we're together ,

its not where i want to be .

i'm gunna try harder and

pray that we get thru

this storm as a whole .

i'd lose my mind if we couldn't .